Ladies, I’ve been looking in on you a lot lately. And I’ve been doing that because some Serious Shit has gone down in this fanbase and we all know what I’m talking about. I don’t need to rehash it, it makes me grumpy.
I wanna take this opportunity to talk to you. I see you at shows and on Tumblr and Twitter and I feel like this old bitty. You’re all so young! It’s crazy. But also, it’s cool. I remember when I was your guys’ age and I remember discovering pop-punk and punk and rock and riot grrl for the first time. I remember my first show and how connected I felt to the band, to everyone in that room. We all felt the bassline rumbling the floor, like this crazy heartbeat and we were all feeling that at the same time. Like we were cells in a body or something. We all leave with hoarse voices and sweat-socked shirts and ringing ears and best friends for life. It goes without saying that music is a very important thing.
You’re all so young. Some of you are just starting high school and music is so important to you. And I WANT it to be important. Trust me when I say that music may be the only thing that’s there for you on some days. As young women, you’re going to go through some rough shit. But, you’re going to get through that shit because you’re stronger than you think you are and you’ll have music to help you through it. I want you to be ready for that rough shit. You may not have learned about how society treats us, as women. You may just be learning, whether that’s by Feminist literature or by life itself.
I’m writing this post because I see a lot of you saying some stuff about This Situation that’s not okay. But, I don’t think you’re bad people for saying it and I don’t think you’ll never be able to be a feminist because of these things. Even if you say you don’t want to be a feminist (you should want to be a feminist), I don’t think that not knowing makes you terrible. You’re young, you don’t know any better yet. Feminism is not something that has to be learned. You have to unlearn everything you’ve ever been taught and then relearn. It’s fucking hard, trust me I’ve been there. But you CAN do it. I have faith in you.
So, what’s this stuff that’s not okay? Accepting This Situation. We can not accept what’s going on. Even if people tell you “it’s not your business”, it is. It is because I have dealt with some many wonderful young women who have been in this same Situation. Much older men in bands, when they are much too young. And those women are not to blame. We are taught, from birth, that our only value is that which is placed on us by men. “Dress for your man!” “Make up looks he’ll love!” “Lose ten pounds for that summer romance!” I can’t make this shit up. I have literally seen this stuff. You deserve more than that.
But, it’s hard. When someone creates A Thing that you love so much, and suddenly! They want to be with you! How cool! No, that’s…Why is this wrong?
It’s not possible to be in a relationship like this and have any sort of power. Relationships, you will find, are about a balance of power and respect. It should balance out so much that power is cancelled out. Like some sort of fraction? I haven’t taken a math class in six years, gimme a break.
You can not be in a relationship with an adult, as a minor, and have any sort of power. It literally will not work. That’s why that whole consent law is there. That’s there to protect you. It’s to protect you from being hurt by that power imbalance. That law is not there because the government thinks you’re stupid, it’s there because the government knows that many adults are.
So, how is this my business? When men prey on young women, when they take advantage of your feelings and your innocence, when they hurt you in ways you didn’t know you could hurt, I make it my business. All of the things I’m doing with my life right now, I’m doing it because I care so much about shaping you youngin’s into the women you absolutely deserve to be. I care about the dreams you have, the goals you set, what’s going on inside your heart because I’ve been there. And I was there alone. And I told myself I’d never let another young girl suffer these things if I could hold my hand out to her and pull her out. Because I was there.
I thought I was in love, and I probably was because your feelings are real and valid, and I thought it was going to be forever. I thought that, because he was older, he’d know how to guide me through life and everything would be okay. But the balance was set so he had ever ounce of power in that relationship. He would treat me like a princess, build me up in this wonderful way, but I knew that if I stepped a toe out of line, it could all be gone. And that’s the problem. You must never be in a relationship where you only stay because there’s the treat of it being ripped out under your feet. The “love” older men have for girls that young is not truly love. It’s a fucking ugly thing, a horrible disgusting thing. Because the men that do seek out young girls fall into two types of categories: The man who is perfectly capable of finding a woman his own age to be with, and the man that can’t. Both of these men are two sides of the same vile coin.
A man who seeks the company of young girls because he wants to should raise all sorts of flags. You are young, you haven’t lived your life yet. You have nothing you could possibly offer to a person like that and that’s okay. You need to have a time in your life where you’re not exciting. You, rightfully, bring nothing to the table for older men. Except your body. Do you honestly believe a man that’s willing to wait until the clock strikes midnight on your eighteenth birthday to have sex with you really cares about your feelings?
The guy who can’t get a woman his own age seeks young women because of their innocence. I know that when I was 16, I had no idea why rape jokes were not okay, and would sit in uncomfortable silence while my then-boyfriend would tell the same ones over and over again.
The things that are going on in this fandom have made so many young women uncomfortable. Your feelings are real, they are not invalid. What’s happening is the very definition of Not Okay. Just because someone we love is involved doesn’t absolve them of following the law and societal rules. If anything, that should make us more vocal about this. Because that girl? She’s one of us. She’s young and she has a heart that’s going to get broken.
It will get broken. There’s really no way around it. I have yet to talk to someone in her situation that came away without a scratch and I’ve been talking for a long time.
Your feelings, your heart. Those things are to be respected. This is not what’s happening here and I think we all know that.
If you need someone to talk to, maybe you’ve done this song and dance, my ask is always open. I’ll even give you my email or numbers to hotlines if it’s serious stuff. But, I’m here to listen (not advise) and offer my own personal experience. If you have questions, seriously just ask. I’m putting myself out there in a big way with this.